Rhymin', Rhythm, Prison

Ash flies,
Blind eyes,
Mercury rise,
High tide,
Why die?

Blind eye,
Strikes I,
So the sheep,
Go to sleep.

Rhymin',
Rhythm,
Prison,
Ism,

What to do,
Go to school,
How are you?
Who hates you?

Fools drool,
Beggars too,

The rich sleep,
Counting sheep,
The poor steep,
On Bourbon street,

I,
Guy,
My,
Sigh,
Jive as,
Exercise,

Blue too,
Hates you,
In the name of more,
But doing less,
What a mess!

Hidden,
Ridden,
Missin’,
Prison,
Kiddin’,
Where are the people,
Who been killin’?

Choromosone fear, my lovely dear.

Choromosone fear, my lovely dear.
The end is near,
Yet when behavior strikes,
We are not yet alike.

~S. Oakshire, today

I read today that whenever animals raise their testosterone levels to fight, they become more vulnerable to infection, cancer and heart disease.

I wonder if the same is true of societies that raise their armies to fight wars. Do those societies become more prone to develop infection, cancer, and heart disease. Or, perhaps as their political correlaries might be called; corruption, greed, and corporate-government sloth.

In the wake of Katrina, tax-cuts for the rich, war against a country that never attacked us, record numbers of bankrupcies (driven this year by a new bankruptcy bill developed by the disease that created it, i.e. the credit card companies), nepotism, and corruption (Delay, Frist, Abramoff to name only the most celebrated), it seems amazingly clear.

When the Bush war-crime family decided to launch their two-front war on Iraq and the American family, they made all of us more vulnerable to infection, cancer and heart disease.

It's a pity. So many diseases are preventable and cheap. I guess the problem given our capitalist system is that there is no "incentive" for anyone to pour resources to strenghtening our country's immune system from infection, cancer, and heart disease. But what about religion as a group of individuals who share the same faith and spirituality. Don't they have a greater "incentive" to help no matter the political system in place?

Apparently they do not. As conservative Christians, Catholics, Mormons, and Jews support the modern-day Republican Party (an idealogical exercise in selfishness), they also support torture, war, killing civilians, a depleted infrastructure, dilapidated inner-city schools, less insuranc for more money and on and on. In short, the pathway to hell is being paved by religions who either outwardly or tacity support corruption, greed, and corporate-government sloth. It becomes apparent that the people who make up these religions care nothing for their stated goals. They use their stated goals as blunt-force objects of power.

Death fear no one,
Death welcome everyone,
Death be meth,
Death on earth be corruption, greed, and bad deeds.
Who hath planted this evil seed?

S. Oakshire ~ today

Food is Good

Food is Good:

I ate yesterday. I ate a real meal yesterday for the first time in three days. I know many would count what I ate in those three days as eating because compared to starvation, it's a feast. But again, I don't dig lesser-of-two-evils' arguments.

In those three days I ate lots of toast with butter and jelly. I had a couple of pieces of celery. I had a couple of jam sandwiches with a slice of sandwich meat jammed between two pieces of bread. (a thin-slice of high-sodium, low-protein turkey sandwich meat ... what a rip off by the way). I also fried one potato ... twice and steamed broccoli once. That was it for three days. I've done it before but each time it feels like I'm descending into a hole. I want to work, but I'm too tired to concentrate. The only thing I have energy to do is watch T.V. I do get up and look in the refrigerator every hour just to see that I didn't miss anything. Of course there is nothing to miss. It's an exercise in hope.

I want to work out, build a business, be productive, but when I can't eat I feel like such a failure. Never mind that I was on an anti-allergen diet beforehand. Those plans are on the shelf for when I have a constant source of income and food. For now, I'll eat almost anything, even if I am allergic to it. I think, "why not meditate", but I'm too tired for that. I feel my bones getting weaker and I feel powerless to do anything about it.

Thank god for friends. A friend of mine has been cooking soups for me during the week. She's vegetarian so I have to go out without animal protein that my body likes, but what the fuck. Some food is better than no food and food made by a friend with love is the best food of all.

The Internet is like a camera and so many other "enabling" technologies. We're able to film starvation, hunger, war, and death anywhere in the world but so far we make ourselves powerless to stop it. I'm able to blog and update my information on the Internet, but that doesn't mean I can eat. We the people like to provide ourselves all sorts of satisfaction devices, but not the basics like food. I won't even touch the topic of "good" food that one of my friend's is so interested in these days. Most of our food is crap and to fight that crap pharmaceutical companies offer all sorts of pills and potions to "make it better" so that we can consume more of it. Capitalism offers us many things, but it also a shitty system prone to massive abuse. I'm referring to a theoretical model of capitalism that doesn't exist with our modern-American political structure, especially under the likes of Bush. If capitalism is freedom, then its and freedom for whom? Are Iraqis free from fear and free? What the fuck does freedom mean then? I don't like theoretical arguments about freedom when so many people starve. Also, what does freedom mean when people are afraid to walk on the streets at night? Are those streets reserved as "free" only for the Hummers who drive on them "tax-free"?

But alas, I ate a solid meal last night. It wasn't the best, but it was an improvement so I guess for today I have to go back on my own theory and say that some food is better than no food. Or, some crappy food (lesser evil) is better than no food (greater evil).

I still don't like the argument. It's so prone to abuse. And abused it is by so many religious zealots of all stripes. "Man shall not kill" and afterwards the Jews pour into Israel and slaughter the "less" godly. The Muslim extremists kill because they are less evil than the infidels. I'm mean really, most of this is bullshit.

But, for my own health, I need to avoid political discussions. They make me angry. How's my punctuation by the way? It feels funny. Any grammar instructors out there?

What's a blog?

What is a blog?

It seems certainly to be a vanity stroke. Look, look at me and my writing. I can be clever with my words. I have something to say. I'm me! Yipee!

I'm not against them at all. Maybe I'm just jealous because it's taken me so long to get my blog on. And my friends -- at least one the other day -- consider me an erudite. (See dictionary.com for definitions).

I like to write. I've always written. But nothing is published. I guess I really haven't tried. But this way, I don't have to worry about that. I guess my only worry is if anyone cares to read it. But that shouldn't worry me either. I've written this long without many people seeing my writing that I think I can go without someone reading my blog.

Only two weeks to go until I get paid. Only two weeks to go until I can go to the store and buy groceries. Our country sucks. How is it that so many people starve to pay for medications? With the new bankruptcy law, it's going to be harder for those people who declare bankruptcy due to medical conditions (1 in 2) to declare bankruptcy. A bill backed by a small group of rich mother fuckers in a New York office spinning poetic about "the health of the economy" and such. What the fuck do those assholes know? Are they blaming missing out on a $10 million townhouse on the upper whatever-fucking side on the fact that so many people pay for food using their credit cards? What a scam! And everyone knows it, but Fox blabbers away with their bold, Hitler lies. It's the second coming of hate and its here and it's raw. The devil wears the clothing of church goers and screams "Hallelujah" (Tom Delay) louder than anyone else. Of course that devil is raping the sheep he pretends to represent. What a fucking sham!

And people who by and large are pious in their personal lives -- I'm talking specifically about those who attend some sort of church regularly and who are good and decent people -- nonetheless stand behind the people who made the decision to go to war, torture, give money to the rich, strip money from disaster aid (FEMA), and lie, lie, lie.

It tears me apart that these people -- and some are my friends -- can so blindly support something that they would never support in their daily lives. It doesn't make me wonder about human beings. I accepted long ago that people are riddled with faults. While it's noble and worthwhile to aspire to more, I only see hypocrisy from religious people. And that is the most insidious, nefarious behavior most of us can consistently portray. Save rapists, murderers, and mass murderers, I would say that religious hypocrites fall right below that group.

And I can here now how some are saying, "Well yeah son, we are better than the criminals you mentioned." Yeah, but does that make you more god-like? The lesser of two evils is such bullshit. There are few people in the world who don't look better when compared to Hitler, Stalin, Pol Pot, the genocide leaders in Kosovo, Sudan, Saddam, and Osama bin Laden. So what kind of comparison is that? It's an absurd comparison that has no relevancy in clear thought.

Mr. Rumsfeld and big American corporations delivered the chemicals that Saddam used to gas the Kurds paid for by the American taxpayer. What fucking business did a conservative ever create that wasn't based in lies or fear? Let me see. Conservatives build churches around cult-a-personalities who preach fear. Conservatives build bombs. Fox News sells fear to gain viewers. Now let's take those business models and see where the money comes from. The churches by and large get "their" money from ordinary people who attend church and donate to the church. No wealth created there. That’s not capitalism. Those who build bombs pay for those bombs from the American taxpayer. So here a product is created that has no perpetuating value. It's not a fishing-pole and pays for itself many times over. It's a one-off product that kills. Period. There is no wealth creation in this category either. There is no capitalism because most of these "contracts" (between who and whom I wonder?) are among a very short list of companies and more specifically and very short list of people (white-men, educated at expensive colleges). Finally, Fox News gets their money from advertisers wanting to make a buck. But what wealth does Fox generate by disseminating lies non-stop through their echo chamber? And the idea of objective "news" is crap as its owner, chairman, and key employees are tied to the Bush-crime family.

In the end, we have the church, military, and propaganda machine working in perfect devilish harmony creating no wealth while preaching "responsibility", "democracy", and "capitalism."

Maybe because these people are "already" people of "God" they don't have atone for their sins on this earth. They have ever-replenishing moral bank accounts filled up someone else paying to build their product that never gives back, but always comes back to take more.

I'm done for the day.

Random thoughts ... political ... day 1

I’m tired. I’m frustrated. My car doesn’t work and I don’t have money to pay for it. My Internet connection is down and I don’t have money to pay for it. I work and I don’t have money to pay for my bills.

I watch T.V., depressed. I don’t feel like writing about my sorrow because there’s just so much of it. It’s a wall I don’t feel like climbing to show or prove that mine is more because I just don’t think it is.

There is a poison on this earth and it’s called Republican. God? What is that? It’s obviously a tool people employ to gain and maintain power. It’s a tool of corruption, deception, and evil. I can’t see that religion is more than a justification for power, selfishness, killing, and suffering. I guess people have to justify their abuse of others and the environment somehow.

I’m tired of starvation diets and crappy food. Sometimes I only have energy to watch TV. I want to start a couple of business but my credit is shot and without a steady income I’m having a tough time repairing it.

“Get a job” people say. Sure, at $35,000K a year? That’s not an income. It’s a joke. It’s modern-day slavery and many are paid much worse. “It’s all in how you see it.” I hear the self-help crowd say. They are right. But what does Anthony Robbins think about the largest transfer of wealth in history from poor people trying to improve their lives to the rich, well-connected, and blood thirsty?

I wonder if he cares. I wonder if he can? I mean can you really care if the system has worked so well for you?

What about the Duffys? I don’t want to think about them. They’ve been so good to me, yet they vote for Bush. I guess torture, killing, and lying are apart of God’s teachings?

I’m a bit depressed that I worked so hard on my scripts and I’m getting no love in return. Why are simple things so hard to do? Why is customer service so shitty?